Silent Disaster

Its pissin me off when i've wasted myself for one whole night and losing it when im on it. A silent disasted made by high expectation of behavior, a disappointment struck roughly ripped my mood off ~ im mad, mad like an ants bitin a rock. Its a demand for me to get through the task, but im losing my grip on maintaining my position. With a slight of hopes never gonna cheer me up, knowing nothing about the results in past. Negative thoughts took over my self-concious. Im blank, blank at the moment where i am suppose to continue and move on for another hill. With the taughts of religion phrase that i endured in past, once again.... Bless me with strength, courage, stability in mind and my health... i believes in YOU and i praises you